life is just ...

Miserable... thats the word... miserable. My life is just... miserable. I don't know what to do or say. really. I mean... I may sound emo but... I don't care... My parents don't understand me... no... really they don't. I can't trust them or at least I don't feel that I have the freedom to trust them. I feel lonely, depressed, I just can't explain how many feelings at once I feel ( I know I may sound redundant but oh well!). In three days I will be 18... woohooo! ... I guess.. I don't feel 18, I feel older, I act older, etc., etc., etc. *laughs* I wish ... I've wished... that sometimes I'd have someone to talk to... to tell how I feel. I write... a lot... and that is how I express my feelings. But, sometimes, writting, doesn't help much at all. Sometimes, at night... when I feel BAD, DEPRESSED, LONELY, you name it.... writting is not enough and I need someone... Why do I feel like this? I ask myself...there's so much I have to say, but no one is there to hear me...

and the mystery of life continues...

Life is a mystery has always been and will always be. Along those mysteries there's one that philosophers, great thinkers etc. have tried to answer but have never been able to... what is love? I thought I knew... but now... i don't... i don't know what love is... and I may never know... I don't know what love is but I know what heart break is... I sure do... Life is ironic though... My favorite number is 4 ... the girl I fell in love with... the girl I AM in love with was born the fourth day of the month... and she said no to me... four times... Ain't that Ironic?! Now, that I have asked myself what love is... how does it feel? ... how does it feel to know that someone loves you or appreciates you for what you are and is with you for what you are... how does it feel to have someone there for you when you need that person... HOW? all these questions are part of the mystery of life... and along with this comes this quote which i find to be wise...

"Love me for what I am, Hate me for what I am not!"

Life

Life...
Life is just ironic...
And unfair sometimes...
Many things are going on right now...
I am getting sick and I hate it...
My family and I are not going through a good economic condition... and I wil have to give up my dream... I won't be able to go to the AMDA audition... I don't have the means of getting to the audition and I don't have the means of paying the application.
I'm used to this already... Life being unfair ... I just remind myself that Patience Is A Virtue... this is just part of the mystery of life...

*ImPoSsIbLe LoVe*

Impossible Love

I fell in Love with a beautiful girl
The girl i had always dreamed of
A girl that to me was like a pearl.

This love was hidden
For I was afraid to ask her.
I felt it was forbidden

I dared to ask one day
I couldn't hide this feeling no more
I asked that if I may,
Be the man of the girl i adore.

'Not now' was her answer
as my heart was torn apart
those words had so much power
I had a bleeding heart.

I asked again, and again, and again,
And her answer did not change
All this was not ceasing the pain
Because those feelings wouldn't change.

After all the pain, I came to realize
That this Love is an impossible Love
I just realize
her heart is something i will never get hold of

Intro

Hello!
My name is Eduardo but u can call me Lord. I like to write, and i write a looot. here, i'll post a lot of stuff...(thats wut this is for ain't it?) so wait for some writing... its comming!!!! lol.